Cookie Monster

Chocolate chip cookies have been my friend for the past week. They make me feel good and I like them.  I just ate six chocolate chip cookies and I am not ashamed.  I also didn't eat dinner so it balances out, right?  I did a lot of walking today though so I don't feel bad.  The real change here is going to transform into not feeling bad about the choices I make. 

Home Sweet Home

I went home this past weekend and received a lot of compliments on losing weight.  Maybe I am slimming down and I just don't notice.  Multiple people told me that I have lost weight, but I definitely have not been doing anything that would cause a drastic change in weight.  Maybe it's the stress.  Who knows!  But I will take it!

Withdrawals

My biggest challenge lately has been cutting out caffeine.  I have been suffering from withdrawals the past few days.  Looks like I will be changing something else.  I am trying to find a small change that will not be so difficult.  Caffeine is not it!

It's All Uphill From Here

I decided to start taking the bus to class from my apartment when possible, which is everyday except Tuesday.  Then I realized, there is a HUGE hill from my apartment to the bus stop.  I live in a pretty large  complex and I live at the very bottom of the hill.  That is more than enough exercise for a day.  The first day, I was breathing so hard and sweating.  It was horrible!  But this is a way for me to get moving and get some exercise whether I want it or not.

Nothing much from these parts

This week, I can't even remember what I have been eating.  I really haven't been focusing on it because there is so much work to be done.  I know that I have been skipping meals, but not purposely.  I must do better.

Work is the focus...Not food

Today has been a horrible food day.  I started off really strong with fish and rice for breakfast (weird I know), but since then I have only eaten a bag of Cheez-Its and a Twix.  Soooo healthy, I know.  I'm in a work groove and I don't want to interrupt it.  Should my eating habits suffer because of my work? No.  Would I possibly be more productive with food in my system?  Probably, but I cannot break this work mojo I have going. 

It is what it is!

I had the urge to work out today and took a nap instead because I did not want to leave my apartment.  I barely ate anything today and the only thing I did eat was cheap and easily accessible.  Story of my life.  However, I stepped on a scale yesterday and I have lost 5 pounds.  There's a little motivation!

What am I doing here?

I'm re-evaluating my decision to choose dieting and exercise as my change goal for this semester. I believe that choice was a little ambitious with all that has been going on this semester.  As we discussed in class, too much change at one time can be overwhelming and counterproductive.  On the bell curve, I would be pretty far left and trying to change one of the few things that keeps me sane and happy (yes I'm comforted by food) only adds to the stress.  I wonder if it is too late to work on something else.  I feel like the only person that this will serve going forward is talking about why I'm not able to exercise and change my eating habits.  Very little progress has been made and quite frankly, I'm not very concerned with the lack of progress because there are so many more pertinent matters going on in my life.  Time to reassess where this is going.

Plateau

This week has kind of been blah.  I haven't really been focused on my meal plan and exercise, but I have been making pretty good choices.  Between weddings, travel, and the birth of my friend's baby girl, food and exercise just haven't been the focus.  I have been eating sweets (wedding cake and such) but I have cut back on my fried foods and I have been parking farther back.  I feel good about where I am right now.

Feel the BURN!

I am soooooooooooo proud of myself!  I worked out for the first time in a looonnnnnggg time tonight.  I worked out with a friend for a little over an hour.  We did a pretty intense resistance training type workout with a little cardio to jump start us.  I'm really proud of myself for getting started and getting through it.  It was pretty tough, but nothing I couldn't handle.  I was surprised since I am so out of shape.  I guess my will power is a little stronger than I believed.  She simply asked if I wanted to join her and something in me felt the need to say yes.  I do not regret it (although I may in the morning).  I am already a little sore and a little nauseous, but I am glad I did it.  I hope I keep it up because the benefits are plenty!  Go me!!!

Off to a Good Start

So I went "grocery shopping" last night and bought a few things.  The picture above was my dinner for last night.  I think it's pretty healthy compared to what I normally eat.  It was pretty tasty and fulfilling.  While shopping, I also made the choice to buy Nature's Valley bars instead of Chewy bars.  I'm not sure if they're much healthier, but I would think so.  I am making much more of an effort and it feels good!  And yes, I'm drinking milk from a wine glass :-)