Progress

I feel really good about my decisions today.  I first decided to walk  instead of taking the bus to class.  It would have been really easy to hop on the bus that time, but I made a conscious decision not to hop on.  I felt really good about that decision!  Go me!!  Now let's watch these food choices over the next few days :-)

Today, I have not been doing very well as far as food goes.  I walked the dog this morning which felt really good, and it wasn't hard.  Overall this weekend, not only have I not been eating healthy food, I haven't eaten very much food at all.  I went almost the entire day only eating ONE rib.  Not good!  I'm not sure what happened or why, but I know it should not happen again.  Today is slightly better.  I ate a muffin this morning, but I didn't eat lunch so now it's more about making sure I get proper nutrients.  Balancing all of this and school is extremely difficult!

I am Woman Hear Me Roar

I feel so awesome this weekend!  I have done so much walking...more walking than I thought I could do and more walking than I have done in a very long time.  I house sat this weekend which also involved pet sitting, which also involved walking the dog around his normal path of one whole mile.  Doesn't sound like a lot, but it is for someone who does not walk anywhere that far.  I walked him on Friday, then twice on Saturday and once on today.  Also walked from one end of campus to another on Saturday and felt pretty good about myself at the end of the day!  I can do this!!!!

Rough Second Go Round

Now that I am back on track, I am trying to be more mindful of what I am eating.  This is especially difficult after being on such a long hiatus.  (Not that I ever really actually started)  I really have to think hard about what I am eating and drinking and in what amounts.  I feel kind of like an addict who has relapsed and is now trying to recover again.  This is normal behavior right?  I am also trying to make time for some type of exercise, but between regular workload and trying to catch up on things from being out of town so much and all of the different changes, it is extremely difficult.  I just have to make it happen!

Back At It

This blog has been difficult to keep up with lately.  It is hard to write about something when you know you have nothing to really say other than, "I didn't really do this today."  I know that in order to make this exercise worthwhile, I need to get back on track with pursuing the change.  I feel like I'm finally in a place where I can dedicate myself back to my change!

Food Food Everywhere!

In the past month, I have been to two weddings, a bridal shower, a baby shower, and a bachelorette weekend trip.  My experience of these events have two major things in common:  Me witnessing the change in others' lives and FOOD!  Lots of food!  Food that is not good for you!!! And Cake!!!! Lots of cake!! And CANDY!! Needless to say, I have not been following my meal plan.  Who can turn down cake at a baby shower?  The mom to be is already upset about gaining weight.  She does not want to hear about how you can't eat any cake because you are trying to lose weight.  No no.  So I had to eat it!  And everything else there :-/

Client Empathy

The past few weeks have really made me think about my clients and what we as therapists sometimes expect from our clients in terms of change, especially our clients facing multiple challenges.  Change can be extremely overwhelming and slow at times depending on what is going on in a client's life.  I know firsthand how even things that are really important can fall by the wayside when faced with some situations.  It is important for us to be empathetic to those situations because it does not always mean that the client does not want to change.  Change is difficult.  It is even more difficult when life itself is already extremely difficult.

When Change Trumps Change

Change has been the name of the game for the past few weeks, I have moved, lost friends, met new people, learned some new things, experienced some new things, and changed my way of thinking about life.  There has been an overwhelming amount of change in my life lately and I am trying to make sense of it all.  So in a sense, life changes have overpowered the change I set out to make at the beginning of the semester.  How do I fit those goals into the mix when there is already so much to adjust to? 

Too Much!!!

There has been so much going on within the past two weeks that this blog has not been at the top of my radar.  I'm talking some serious changes and stressful situations, so I have not even given much thought to my change goals.  Overwhelmed only begins to describe my experience over the last few weeks, but I am back on track now and finally getting back to "normal."  More to come!

Changes all around

Unfortunately, I have not been very focused on my change lately.  There has been so much going on that this goal has been at the very back of my mind.   I wish I had more to say about my progress and my experience, but I don't.  It makes me think about clients and the work we do in therapy and the work we ask them to do outside of therapy and how we as therapists may get annoyed when clients don't do their homework, but life truly does get in the way sometimes.  Is it wrong to let go of those goals in order to focus on what is happening in the moment?  I think so as long as you pick back up when possible.  That's where I am right now.

Some Days Are Better Than Others

Last night I ate an entire box of cookie dough bites and I do not feel bad about it.  I enjoyed them.  And that is that.  I had a craving and I did not fight it, but now I feel like I can resist the temptation of sweets for the next few days.  Allowing myself that indulgence may be more beneficial in the long run.  Maybe......Today, I decided to walk to a location on campus instead of taking the bus. I felt the burn, but I was proud of myself for not taking the easy road.  Today is off to a good start!

Sometimes Life Gets in the Way

The past week has been full of twists and turns and several different events that have not been very helpful or conducive to change.  I went out of town for a wedding and also went home to visit family.  Not only did I not eat great foods, I did not eat very much at all, which is also a bad thing.  There were two days where I only ate once that day and did not eat a very good meal.  Between that and wedding cake, my changes were not at the forefront of my mind. 

While life kept getting in the way this past week, I have been doing well with drinking water.  And as soon as I typed that statement, I realized that I just finished drinking a cherry Fanta.  It's hard to turn down a drink that comes with your meal, but I did drink water earlier today.  I can definitely feel in my body that something needs to change, it's just a challenge to make it happen.  I just keep reminding myself to take it a day at a time and not beat myself up.